Feelings stirring...Thoughts competing..And my heart's standing stillWatching with a sorrowful lookThe injustice and the painBreaking their waves with all their mighton its shore....Will it surrender and give inTo the waves destroying it...Or stand infront of themAnd refuse to let them win..Juwaireyah30/11/20052:30 pm
A feeling burried within my soul
Striving to break free...Do I open up and let it go
Or keep it inside of meDo I face the suffering that lies ahead
All the agony and all the fears...Or live my life wondering instead
And save myself the tears..!Juwaireyah29/11/200510:00 pm
Salam guysWell, my friends would be like 'What the hell r u doing online woman?! go study, u have an exam tomorrow!'Well, thing is I've been trying to since yesterday, graphs and equations just won't sink in, I'd sit on my desk, open the book, turn on some music, even say duaa al mozakara, and then.....Nothing, just nothing! I'd grab a peice of paper start writing, don't know why I get inspired at the time of exams :p probably coz subconciously I'm trying to delay revisions as much as I could.Things haven't been working well lately, it seems everything choose to happen in the wrong time, subhan allah, but I'm sure there's a point from all this happening around me, alhamdulillah!I called a friend, started talking to her, spilling out everything to her, she was like go take a warm shower and pray, I did what she said, I'm not sure if it made me feel better, on the contrary, I felt really down afterwards, I've never been in such a mood before.I logged in, and a friend of mine sent me this great nasheed, 'al burdah' well, u'll all say, what's the big deal with the burdah, we've listened to it a zillion times from zillions of artists, but no! this one is really special, it's so out of this world! I couldn't stop my tears, it was describing every single thing I've been feeling lately, I'd listen to it over and over, feel it sinking into my heart before my ears, I let it sink in, made me feel a lot better, not really a lot better, but it kinda explained what I feel, felt like a heavenly hand is tapping me on the shoulders, consoling me, promising me everything is going to be fine.فما لعينيك إن قلت اكْفُفا هَمَتــا وما لقلبك إن قلت استفق يهــــمِ
أيحسب الصبُ أنّ الحب منكتـــمٌ ما بين منسجم منه ومضْطَّــــــرمِ
لولا الهوى لم ترق دمعاً على طـللٍ ولا أرقْتَ لذكر البانِ والعَلــــمِ
فكيف تنكر حباً بعد ما شــهدتْ به عليك عدول الدمع والســــقمِOh my God! how I love arabic poetry, English has always been my favourite language, I'd love to study it after I graduate, I really doubt it if we even gathered the greatest english poets of all times together, they won't be able to write such a peice of art.نعمْ سرى طيفُ منْ أهوى فأرقـني والحب يعترض اللذات بالألــــمِShakes ur heart right to its core, right?Well, I probably should log off now, try another attemp to study anything, I hope I'd succeed this time thu!May Allah guide us all to the right path and choose what's best for us, and make us feel good about it. Amen.
Salamu Alikum allI know I haven't blogged in quite a long timeCheck out this poem written by none other but Jalaluddin Rumi, and since I haven't written poems in quite a long time myself thought I'd share this with you, one of my favourites, lightens up my mood everytime I'm upset:Oh, if a tree could wander and move with foot and wings!It would not suffer the axe blows and not the pain of saws!For would the sun not wander away in every night ?How could at every morning the world be lighted up?And if the ocean's water would not rise to the sky,How would the plants be quickened by streams and gentle rain?The drop that left its homeland, the sea, and then returned ?It found an oyster waiting and grew into a pearl.Did Yusuf not leave his father, in grief and tears and despair?Did he not, by such a journey, gain kingdom and fortune wide?Did not the Prophet travel to far Medina, friend?And there he found a new kingdom and ruled a hundred lands.You lack a foot to travel? Then journey into yourself!And like a mine of rubies receive the sunbeams?print!Out of yourself ? such a journey will lead you to your self,It leads to transformation of dust into pure gold!
