Siggghhhhsss.....
It's 5:15 am now, just hung up the phone with my uncle, been talking to him for a whole hr!
I just couldn't take it anymore, like 2 hrs ago I was so cheerful, but then all of a sudden this weird mood got into me, I don't know what it is, a mix of panicking from the exam and worrying over lots of things that have been going on, and this lump in my throat started to form, suffocating me, I felt I'm gonna explode if I didn't talk to someone, logged in hoping I'd find someone to talk to but no one was on, called Doudi, Iythy and Southwind but they were all asleep :s
Went thru my phone book, was desperate to talk to anybody, gave my uncle a missed call, maybe he's on his night shift, he rang back, I jumped off bed, got the phone and dialed his numer:
him: hey iso, missed u soo much
me: missed u too, how r u
him: I'm fine, when r ur exams?
me: tomorrow, or today actually!
him: wow, go to bed girl!
me: I can't, I feel terrible
him: why, what's wrong, sth new happened?
me: lots of things happened
him: spill it out girl
I kept talking and talking for like 20 mins, telling him all about it, spilling everything out, I so want him to be here with me now, I really need him so much...
him: all that happened and u didn't tell me? what's wrong with u? why didn't u call me
me: I've been meaning to
him: meaning to?? u should've told me long ago girl
me: I know, I'm sorry I didn't
him: don't worry, I have a good feeling about this, inshaAllah it'll work out
me: I hope so :(
him: come on, things have gone really well so far, waaaay better than I expected
me: I know me too
him, don't worry then, just have faith in God, get closer to him and do it the right way
me: isA
He was amazing really, I actually felt a lot better crying over the phone with him, I so wanted to talk to him ever since it all started but was always busy or hesitant, but now I know I should've done that long ago, he's so supportive, may Allah bless him for me...
him: ok, just go pray fajr and get some sleep girl
me: I don't think I'll sleep aslan, I'll just stay up till exam, don't feel like sleeping
him: hey, what's wrong
me: .....
him: come on honey, don't worry, it'll be fine isA
me: I hope so, make duaa for me plz, I really need it sooo much
him: isA, don't worry, I'm here for u
God! I need your help, never needed it more, be here for me and guide me!!
J
I just couldn't take it anymore, like 2 hrs ago I was so cheerful, but then all of a sudden this weird mood got into me, I don't know what it is, a mix of panicking from the exam and worrying over lots of things that have been going on, and this lump in my throat started to form, suffocating me, I felt I'm gonna explode if I didn't talk to someone, logged in hoping I'd find someone to talk to but no one was on, called Doudi, Iythy and Southwind but they were all asleep :s
Went thru my phone book, was desperate to talk to anybody, gave my uncle a missed call, maybe he's on his night shift, he rang back, I jumped off bed, got the phone and dialed his numer:
him: hey iso, missed u soo much
me: missed u too, how r u
him: I'm fine, when r ur exams?
me: tomorrow, or today actually!
him: wow, go to bed girl!
me: I can't, I feel terrible
him: why, what's wrong, sth new happened?
me: lots of things happened
him: spill it out girl
I kept talking and talking for like 20 mins, telling him all about it, spilling everything out, I so want him to be here with me now, I really need him so much...
him: all that happened and u didn't tell me? what's wrong with u? why didn't u call me
me: I've been meaning to
him: meaning to?? u should've told me long ago girl
me: I know, I'm sorry I didn't
him: don't worry, I have a good feeling about this, inshaAllah it'll work out
me: I hope so :(
him: come on, things have gone really well so far, waaaay better than I expected
me: I know me too
him, don't worry then, just have faith in God, get closer to him and do it the right way
me: isA
He was amazing really, I actually felt a lot better crying over the phone with him, I so wanted to talk to him ever since it all started but was always busy or hesitant, but now I know I should've done that long ago, he's so supportive, may Allah bless him for me...
him: ok, just go pray fajr and get some sleep girl
me: I don't think I'll sleep aslan, I'll just stay up till exam, don't feel like sleeping
him: hey, what's wrong
me: .....
him: come on honey, don't worry, it'll be fine isA
me: I hope so, make duaa for me plz, I really need it sooo much
him: isA, don't worry, I'm here for u
God! I need your help, never needed it more, be here for me and guide me!!
J
