A looong day....
Haven't blogged in quite a long time... lots of catching up to do, but I just can't get myself to concentrate and put them down on paper (in typing actually) ...
Yesterday (no, not wednesday, tuesday I mean) was a veeeery long day... I was working non-stop on my 3 term-projects that should be submitted on wednesday, was a veeery booring day, and I was very worried too coz I haven't heard from my friend and they haven't blogged as well... where are they?!
it's Wednesday, 4 am, still didn't sleep... called doudi and we chatted for like a whole hour, and I told her that I'm surprised that I'm not feeling bad about this and not ashamed of it and that it even brought me closer to Allah, thu in different circumstances with different people I wouldn't have approved of doing it, I know they're no prophets, but I trust them so much and feel safe with them...
My friend that I was worried about signed in at like 5 am, sent me some pics and we had a little chat but they had to leave for fajr, I made wudhu and prayed fajr and made duaa, then came back to my pc, started printing out the stuff I was working on for the whole day, I stayed signed in coz I had this feeling they'll sign in again after fajr, I know I probably should sign out, coz this isn't what we agred upon, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it, I reaaaally wanted to talk to them....
6 am, they signed in just as I expected, we talked for like 3 hrs, discussing issues, laughing together, I was really happy then, probably the best chat I had with them till now, felt we're so close in understanding, felt sooo right talking to them... it just fits soo much...
Then I brought up this topic I have been discussing with doudi, I know I probably should've waited after thursday, but I just had to spill it out, I know they'd agree with me and that's what happened, but I felt really bad afterwards for making them feel bad about themselves :(
it's 10 am and I still haven't slept, went down with dad, he dropped me off colleg and we kept talking about thursday's dinner, I'm really happy he's taking it in in a better way now, obviously he expects it to be totally work-related which is a very good thing, and I kept making jokes about me signing my contract with them tmorrow and stuff and he was laughing about it, Thank you God for making him feel better about the whole thing!
10:30, my friend txted me, which made me feel even worse, I txted back but no reply, I was so worried about them.... I submitted the projects and got back home at about 3... called my friends and told them I'd meet them 6:30 pm infront of Genena.... my friend txted back at like 5:30 which made me feel a lot better alhamdulillah...
Now we're inside Genena, Thank God for having such wonderful friends, they're absolutely great, very kind and caring, I gave them hard time shopping but they didn't complain the least...
One of my friend's friend called and said that they were thinking about stopping by or sth, I was like NOOOOO!!!! but my friend kept teasingme and saying yeah, they should come, but I thought it was a very bad idea actually, I mean, I reaaaally wanna see them but it's not the right thing to do honestly, plus I looked really awful!!
My friends were so helpful, after shopping we stayed in the bathroom for like 1 and a half hour trying on some stuff :p it was absolutely hilarious!! we finished our shopping, got in the car and playing Hasbi Rabbi on top volume (trying so hard not to dance on the beat :p)
Got back home at 11 (I know this is absolutely out of the line, my mum actually got furious that I arrived that late, but kheir) she greeted me on the door with a DELIGHTFUL peice of news!! NOO!! one is totally enough, and I can't even deal with him or handle him, I can't really stand him! but 2 at the same time!!! this is so much to take in honestly... I looked at my mum and was like 'forget it, I'm not even seeing the guy!', but J u already know him!, and so? does this make him better than anybody else? I'm not seeing him, fullstop!..... later on I found out that dad didn't like him as well so it's all good...
Got sth to eat while chatting a bit with my dad, then went straight to bed at about 12:30... was dead tired, haven't slept for whole 2 days and got loads to worry about, I fell asleep but woke up 2 hrs later, I can't help but worry about what's gonna happen today, and my heart keeps beating reaaaaally fast to the extent that it hurts sometimes...
Prayers needed people more than ever!!!!!!!
WS
J
Yesterday (no, not wednesday, tuesday I mean) was a veeeery long day... I was working non-stop on my 3 term-projects that should be submitted on wednesday, was a veeery booring day, and I was very worried too coz I haven't heard from my friend and they haven't blogged as well... where are they?!
it's Wednesday, 4 am, still didn't sleep... called doudi and we chatted for like a whole hour, and I told her that I'm surprised that I'm not feeling bad about this and not ashamed of it and that it even brought me closer to Allah, thu in different circumstances with different people I wouldn't have approved of doing it, I know they're no prophets, but I trust them so much and feel safe with them...
My friend that I was worried about signed in at like 5 am, sent me some pics and we had a little chat but they had to leave for fajr, I made wudhu and prayed fajr and made duaa, then came back to my pc, started printing out the stuff I was working on for the whole day, I stayed signed in coz I had this feeling they'll sign in again after fajr, I know I probably should sign out, coz this isn't what we agred upon, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it, I reaaaally wanted to talk to them....
6 am, they signed in just as I expected, we talked for like 3 hrs, discussing issues, laughing together, I was really happy then, probably the best chat I had with them till now, felt we're so close in understanding, felt sooo right talking to them... it just fits soo much...
Then I brought up this topic I have been discussing with doudi, I know I probably should've waited after thursday, but I just had to spill it out, I know they'd agree with me and that's what happened, but I felt really bad afterwards for making them feel bad about themselves :(
it's 10 am and I still haven't slept, went down with dad, he dropped me off colleg and we kept talking about thursday's dinner, I'm really happy he's taking it in in a better way now, obviously he expects it to be totally work-related which is a very good thing, and I kept making jokes about me signing my contract with them tmorrow and stuff and he was laughing about it, Thank you God for making him feel better about the whole thing!
10:30, my friend txted me, which made me feel even worse, I txted back but no reply, I was so worried about them.... I submitted the projects and got back home at about 3... called my friends and told them I'd meet them 6:30 pm infront of Genena.... my friend txted back at like 5:30 which made me feel a lot better alhamdulillah...
Now we're inside Genena, Thank God for having such wonderful friends, they're absolutely great, very kind and caring, I gave them hard time shopping but they didn't complain the least...
One of my friend's friend called and said that they were thinking about stopping by or sth, I was like NOOOOO!!!! but my friend kept teasingme and saying yeah, they should come, but I thought it was a very bad idea actually, I mean, I reaaaally wanna see them but it's not the right thing to do honestly, plus I looked really awful!!
My friends were so helpful, after shopping we stayed in the bathroom for like 1 and a half hour trying on some stuff :p it was absolutely hilarious!! we finished our shopping, got in the car and playing Hasbi Rabbi on top volume (trying so hard not to dance on the beat :p)
Got back home at 11 (I know this is absolutely out of the line, my mum actually got furious that I arrived that late, but kheir) she greeted me on the door with a DELIGHTFUL peice of news!! NOO!! one is totally enough, and I can't even deal with him or handle him, I can't really stand him! but 2 at the same time!!! this is so much to take in honestly... I looked at my mum and was like 'forget it, I'm not even seeing the guy!', but J u already know him!, and so? does this make him better than anybody else? I'm not seeing him, fullstop!..... later on I found out that dad didn't like him as well so it's all good...
Got sth to eat while chatting a bit with my dad, then went straight to bed at about 12:30... was dead tired, haven't slept for whole 2 days and got loads to worry about, I fell asleep but woke up 2 hrs later, I can't help but worry about what's gonna happen today, and my heart keeps beating reaaaaally fast to the extent that it hurts sometimes...
Prayers needed people more than ever!!!!!!!
WS
J
